smile away

this summer has been amazing.
its a monday and its sprinkling and gloomy outside.
it's suppose to be hot again by next weekend, but we're comming to a close.
which is exciting.
i looking foward to fall.
amgela and i wanna escape to the beach in a month or two when no one else will think to go cuz its too cold... it'll be genius... muah hah ha.
life has been pretty amazing. it keeps getting wonderful.
i've been listening to such amazing music and have been having such amazing conversations with such lovely people.
i feel so blessed.

the only thing that saddens me a bit is that i dont feel motivated to write much these days. i miss that, but i guess the compromise is doing well in school and having real conversations with amazing people. so theres not much to complain about : )

wedding bells

my aunt Susan is getting married... yay!
i went shopping today for a dress to wear,
and i found something spectacular.
i'll take loads of pictures.

currently...

im looking deeper and i've been comming into a better understanding.
im enjoying patience.
im so much more at peace that i've ever been before.

the end of summer

its still summer, yet higher education tells us otherwise.
im excited about school.

monday i woke up tiered and
ready for school with
a pen in one hand and a coffe in the other.
i was so tiered
did my homework
i took a beautiful nap and
woke up
about four hours later
dinner was ready
i cleaned
i got ready for the next day to come
had some good late night conversation
than the phone exploded
and i promptly went to sleep

$1 tuesdays at baskin robins
turned into an extended night of
barefoot strolling, cold brews and some live music.
i came home and i was spent.
i got ready for next day to come.
took a nice shower and knocked out.

i would love to run away to the beach for a day.

i love my life.

hot fun in the summer time

things have been pretty awesome lately.
yeah... theres the occasional hormonal moments, but i get over those slumps.
those are only momentary.
i've been hanging out with friends a lot.
im pretty happy to be a full time student, cuz right now i have time off.
which is nice, i keep making plans to hang with awesome people.

angela and i are brainstorming and planning to go out of town for my birthday!
it'll be an amazing adventure, im sure of it.

i've been able to listen to my vinyl a bit more. and i've gone to a few shows.
i saw wooden birds with angela and they were spectacular. they say they'll come again, and i hope so... but they made no promises.

i've been able to hang out with melanie a lot lately and she's super awesome as well. we're making plans for a trip as well actually.

and then there's henry who's just really awesome and we've been able to talk from time to time.
i've been blessed to be able to meet such amazing people.

i'm just super stoked for all these plans in the summer. i need to make more!

i've seen the most incredible light

awesome song. and video.

made me laugh.

i'm in love with a big blue frog

i love them.

this video is entrancing

tatt's

so i want a tatt on my back, i may have shared the whole sleeping tiger and girl to you.

BUT, i officially decided that i want one on my leg as well.

(the picture above is what i want, but just the flower)

i want the flower to start at my ankle and i want black intertwined lines comming out of the nectar.

my friend angela painted on my ankle with indian ink last week and i love the lines she did. i'm going to ask her to help me collaborate.

and i want it to look realistic like this picture and have the same pink and yellow colored in.

it's over... for now.

i completed my first year back in school. and it was heavily stressful the last 3 weeks.
last semester i got B's... i'm hoping that'll become A's this semester. i'll have to wait till i hear back from my instuctor's.
this summer i feel split down the middle. i feel like im not doing much.
the other half of me is quite busy.

the busy side:
-a few shows i'm hoping to go to.
-weekend so cal trip.
-get together at my house.
-my birthday, no plans for that yet.
-voulenteer work for Watch Star.
-tolerate growing my hair long. haha.
-babysit throught it all.
-summer school july 6-30.

~maybe take a fencing class and/or tennis class.
~maybe day trips and get aways if possible.

this is the beginning of the end

this is the end classes.
classes are over and finals are here.
today i turned in my final paper for english.
it was about the music industry and i titled it: where have all the flowers gone?
i think i'll be fine in that class.
i have my math final tomorrow and i finished all my online homework.
now i have to finish the worksheets and work on the study guide.
im nervous about that test.
in the morning i have to show up and sign in to my spanish class.
i dont have to take the test cuz i have an A in the class. yay!!!

i must study now.

take me out tonight

it's 100degrees today.
i'm hot and bothered.
im gunna jump in the pool now.

-I Wish I Was Dreaming-
There's about
A few thousand thoughts
Running inside my head.
They're presistant
And consistant.
Time takes flight
As I stare for hours.
I roll my eyes
As I try to dream.
A few thousand thoughts
Are tormenting my sleep.
So I toss and I turn,
I try to rearrange
My body and
My thoughts.
My thoughts
Are now trying
To escape.
So I grab some paper
And allow them to flee.
Maybe I'll be able
To dream now.

dads

today i had a nice conversation with my dad.
he ended it with saying:
"you can be anything you want. but most of all, i just want you to be happy"

painting it clearly.

my words fall out of my mouth and land on thin ice.


i'm not even sure how to describe my words above.
thats just the clearest picture i can paint.
obviously not so clear.

pull me in tighter

so yesterday was mothers day.

i told my mother happy mothers day and i sent her a card.

dinner became uncalled for and awkward as my aunt (by marrige) talks to me about her plan to leave central cali without my uncle. and i don't know how to respond.

but the night alas was saved as my unexpected heart was delighted by GRAND DUCHY

they totally rocked the stage and it came to a bitter sweet end as only henry and i were enthusiastically cheering and clapping for them to do an encore.

but, no dice.

either way it was AMAZING!!!

as if the night couldn't have gotten more glorious... we then, as fate were to have it, we met FRANK BLACK and his lovely wife VIOLET.

we were then completely starstuck.

and i was so enthralled, i had a hard time sleeping.

i guess im back to earth now because i just had a spanish test.

but im running on about 3 1/2 hrs of sleep.

and i wish i could take a nap right about...... now.

TOTALLY WORTH IT

bye bye miss american pie.

im excited for the semester to be coming to a close.
i have a paper to write.
and im on top of it.
i have a final for math.
un examen por mi clase de espanol a lunes.
and i'm working on my presentation due on tuesday.

you can have my viking heart.

there's a lot of chaos going on in my head.
im glad i was able to take a long walk yesterday
and had alone time with my dog and with my moon.
it always clears my head.

i've been having mental distractions that occupy my time.
plus the semester is coming to a close.
so the work load is heavy right now.
and i keep wanting to escape.
but i can't.
i'm very focused in my studies
and im getting good grades.
i'm getting A's for goodness sakes.
so i'm ok.
sometimes. i just need to take a breather.
especially lately.

this past weekend was really good.
i went to an evangelism training conference for college students who want to create or progress a movement on their campus'.
it was extremely helpful and completely centered me.
i also got to spend some time with tammy, who is such a sweetheart.

lately i've been listening to music with a calmer pace. it's been mentally soothing.
i got a mixed tape last week that i really dig and i've been listening to it a lot.
there's a song on the tape that i've falling in love with. its called: the shredder, by little wings.
*sigh* it makes me melt. its such a lovely song. words cannot describe the feelings it portrays.

i'm just very grateful for all the things going on in my life right now. even all the stress.

when finals are over i want to spend a whole day at the beach.

incase you didn't know,

i was without a phone for a bit.

and yesterday

i got my sim chip yesterday.

which makes life easier.

my mom got me a blackberry.

the old school one.

its all beaten up too.

which is totally fine.

im more than thankful.

i think my storm trooper project might be happening fairly soon : )

(i found this picture online, but heres somewhat of an example of what i plan to do)

what i would love right now.

i'd love to go out tonight and just gaze at the moon and look at the stars.
that would be lovely.
if it were at a secluded beach... that would only make it better.
i just need a dose of that to shake this feeling.

annie oakley

suddenly i have a lot weighing on me.
what have i possibly gotten myself into?