hot venom.

i speak for everyone, we're sick of it.

ugh. so my "homework" is to come up with 5 things i truely like about this person. thats true and from _____'s true heart.

-im thinking that i want it all.
-my viking heart is in pain.

i need to figure out how to make them not effect my heart so much.
its too much for me to bear.
its gets me no where.
and i start sinking in a river of my own thoughts.

-the deer hunter by mayo

i miss you. im moving out back to the west coast.

so we've made a new plan.
by next summer we're moving back down south. we'll be moving to the O.C.
which im stoked about!
this last visit i had to l.a. made me realize how much i miss l.a.
like seriously.
i miss it so very much.
the vibe.
the beauty.
the grunge.
the music.
the food.
the culture.
the people.
the art.
the noise.
the helicopters.
the crazies.
the weather.
the intergrations
and seperations.

i'll be done with my classes. most of them. so it'll be a smooth transition for us all!

we're fresh, like a pair of new born kids

im in love with miniature tigers

we fit like a pair of beat up shoes, with nothing left to prove. we can be ourselves -miniature tigers (viking hearts)

l.a. is magic fantastic!

so life is really sweet right now. i went to la for the weekend.
got there on thursday night. my mom and elias picked me up from union station.
we ate at noodle world.
friday: saw he's just not that into you (and i cried, nothing new) than we met up with my aunt susan at the mall & than the three of us met up with elias, santiago, jennifer and lauren @ kabuki.
at night it got ugly. my mom doesnt know how to control her temper over the simplest of things and i'm just as guilty when it's with her. i took off. i only went back because i didn't feel right. and i didn't speak to her till the next morning. ugh. i tried to not let that effect the rest of my stay. but that sucked.
saturday: i was suppose to meet up with melorie for breakfast, but she's under the weather. so i went with elias and my mom to santa clarita to pick up his son. i stoped by a store and found some cute shoes and a bag and blouse.
than we went to Galco's the soda pop stop. and i got a whole bunch of soda. i loaded up on the caribean cream soda :)
when we got home eric and nancy came to my moms place and we had dinner. it was yum. elias made carne, my mom made sopa and tortillas and fijoles.
than gafas came to pick me up and we went to the art show in chinatown that my friend tessar invited me to because he was going to be showing one of his peices. so we went to Movers & Shakers... it was pretty cool, but i didn't bump into him. after we went to the YORK for drinks. and we just got to hang out and catch up.
sunday: i had breakfast at my moms and than just hung out for a while than jessica picked me up and we had lunch and than hung out at little tokyo. there we had yogurt at YogurtLand and than just browsed LT than after i got some curry pan (my dads request to take back home with me) we met up with Tessar and i bought a peice that shall be comming my way soon :) ... it's beautiful and so, im excited for its arrival. than after that we went to Ameoba... my FAVORITE store i've ever been to! and i only spent about 40... which is awesome... but probably only because they were closing. haha. than we went to dinner and than we went to my mom and elias' place and watched sex and the city.
monday: jessica picked me up and we had breakfast. than i went to union station. got to bakersfeild for a transfer 20 minutes late, the train left, so we had to wait. and ended waiting for 5 hours! but i eventually got home. which was nice.

i over all had a MAGNIFICENT TIME!

than on tuesday i have classes again.
i had a good day at school even thought my 2nd and 3rd class was cancelled.
i was able to get things done at those times.
than after i went to the library and listened to SONGS OF NATIONAL FREEDOM w/Patrick Carrie which i've been listening to, and is always a good time.
and than i received valentine mail. and in it theres a starbucks card and i also got a letter from school saying i've made the deans list.
ya. nothing to complain about.

i bought at ameoba:
- johnathan david: belle and sebastian
- cruel smile: elvis costello & the imposters
-limbeck: limbeck
-white magic: miniature tigers
-songs: lullaby for the working class
-gorilla: james taylor
-the legend of kung folk (part 1): the ben taylor band

than when i got home i bought what i wasn't able to buy at ameoba:
-boyd rice presents MUSIC FOR PUSSYCATS: various artists
-peaceful, the world lays me down: noah and the whale
-tell it to the volcano: miniature tigers

this is not a test or an S.O.S.

recently i've fallen in love with the miniature tigers

my favourite chords

life is nice.
im looking forward to tomorrow
and the tomorrows to come.

"you are an open door. im a faulty string of blue christmas lights" -the weakerthans.

super so good

im still sick.

i look like im possessed.

walking around with an unattentive stare.

my eyes are blood shot red.

watery beyond discomfort.

and the weather is very strange today.

a storms a commin'.

but today is kinda nice.

its thursday and my week is nearly over.

thursdays are nice.

i feel like debbie downer today.

im so missing L.A. today. and all the cool places and people and weather and wonderful things to look at. i just miss the vibe.
i've met a few nice people here, which im truely thankful for, but im a southern cali girl.

im so off beat here. i mean i truely dont care what people think of me where ever i reside or visit, but its been almost a year and it's getting to me like a itchy turtle neck i've been wearing all day.

this visit to the homeland is comming at the most perfect time.
school is clobbering down on me also. i have so much to do. for me, this is a big load... or maybe it just especially feels like it right now since im sick.

yesterday i was listening to this radio program that PATRICK CARRIE of the LIMBECK band hosts on kuci. you can even listen to it online (if you click listen now on the top right hand corner, they've got live feed) his program is on tuesdays from 2-4. on his blog it even says the song i requested. awesome. so catch it if you ever get a chance, he's awesome.

anyway, i miss l.a. im glad i'll be comming home.

karen and i were talking today. and the new plan is gunna be that my time frame from now till im done with my pre-requisites is enough of a time frame to plan our move out of the central valley and go back home to southern california.

so: listen to songs of national freedom if you wanna know why indie rock is still alive! w/ the lovely patrick carrie.

peace.