i've seen the most incredible light

awesome song. and video.

made me laugh.

i'm in love with a big blue frog

i love them.

this video is entrancing

tatt's

so i want a tatt on my back, i may have shared the whole sleeping tiger and girl to you.

BUT, i officially decided that i want one on my leg as well.

(the picture above is what i want, but just the flower)

i want the flower to start at my ankle and i want black intertwined lines comming out of the nectar.

my friend angela painted on my ankle with indian ink last week and i love the lines she did. i'm going to ask her to help me collaborate.

and i want it to look realistic like this picture and have the same pink and yellow colored in.

it's over... for now.

i completed my first year back in school. and it was heavily stressful the last 3 weeks.
last semester i got B's... i'm hoping that'll become A's this semester. i'll have to wait till i hear back from my instuctor's.
this summer i feel split down the middle. i feel like im not doing much.
the other half of me is quite busy.

the busy side:
-a few shows i'm hoping to go to.
-weekend so cal trip.
-get together at my house.
-my birthday, no plans for that yet.
-voulenteer work for Watch Star.
-tolerate growing my hair long. haha.
-babysit throught it all.
-summer school july 6-30.

~maybe take a fencing class and/or tennis class.
~maybe day trips and get aways if possible.

this is the beginning of the end

this is the end classes.
classes are over and finals are here.
today i turned in my final paper for english.
it was about the music industry and i titled it: where have all the flowers gone?
i think i'll be fine in that class.
i have my math final tomorrow and i finished all my online homework.
now i have to finish the worksheets and work on the study guide.
im nervous about that test.
in the morning i have to show up and sign in to my spanish class.
i dont have to take the test cuz i have an A in the class. yay!!!

i must study now.

take me out tonight

it's 100degrees today.
i'm hot and bothered.
im gunna jump in the pool now.

-I Wish I Was Dreaming-
There's about
A few thousand thoughts
Running inside my head.
They're presistant
And consistant.
Time takes flight
As I stare for hours.
I roll my eyes
As I try to dream.
A few thousand thoughts
Are tormenting my sleep.
So I toss and I turn,
I try to rearrange
My body and
My thoughts.
My thoughts
Are now trying
To escape.
So I grab some paper
And allow them to flee.
Maybe I'll be able
To dream now.

dads

today i had a nice conversation with my dad.
he ended it with saying:
"you can be anything you want. but most of all, i just want you to be happy"

painting it clearly.

my words fall out of my mouth and land on thin ice.


i'm not even sure how to describe my words above.
thats just the clearest picture i can paint.
obviously not so clear.

pull me in tighter

so yesterday was mothers day.

i told my mother happy mothers day and i sent her a card.

dinner became uncalled for and awkward as my aunt (by marrige) talks to me about her plan to leave central cali without my uncle. and i don't know how to respond.

but the night alas was saved as my unexpected heart was delighted by GRAND DUCHY

they totally rocked the stage and it came to a bitter sweet end as only henry and i were enthusiastically cheering and clapping for them to do an encore.

but, no dice.

either way it was AMAZING!!!

as if the night couldn't have gotten more glorious... we then, as fate were to have it, we met FRANK BLACK and his lovely wife VIOLET.

we were then completely starstuck.

and i was so enthralled, i had a hard time sleeping.

i guess im back to earth now because i just had a spanish test.

but im running on about 3 1/2 hrs of sleep.

and i wish i could take a nap right about...... now.

TOTALLY WORTH IT

bye bye miss american pie.

im excited for the semester to be coming to a close.
i have a paper to write.
and im on top of it.
i have a final for math.
un examen por mi clase de espanol a lunes.
and i'm working on my presentation due on tuesday.

you can have my viking heart.

there's a lot of chaos going on in my head.
im glad i was able to take a long walk yesterday
and had alone time with my dog and with my moon.
it always clears my head.

i've been having mental distractions that occupy my time.
plus the semester is coming to a close.
so the work load is heavy right now.
and i keep wanting to escape.
but i can't.
i'm very focused in my studies
and im getting good grades.
i'm getting A's for goodness sakes.
so i'm ok.
sometimes. i just need to take a breather.
especially lately.

this past weekend was really good.
i went to an evangelism training conference for college students who want to create or progress a movement on their campus'.
it was extremely helpful and completely centered me.
i also got to spend some time with tammy, who is such a sweetheart.

lately i've been listening to music with a calmer pace. it's been mentally soothing.
i got a mixed tape last week that i really dig and i've been listening to it a lot.
there's a song on the tape that i've falling in love with. its called: the shredder, by little wings.
*sigh* it makes me melt. its such a lovely song. words cannot describe the feelings it portrays.

i'm just very grateful for all the things going on in my life right now. even all the stress.

when finals are over i want to spend a whole day at the beach.