PUMPKIN

today during my long break between classes i looked at the sample ballot and made decissions.
i also wrote :)
heres what i wrote:

-ReTracing A MEMORY-
My memory is a fog.
It began at a time
Of peace and quiet.
A midnight drive to our destination.
Stop at the redlight special.
Incased in a glass box.
My mind became a blur.
Deep and introspective discussions
All submerged from worldly inhibitants.
True trust at a pivital time
of mistrust.
You tugged at my heart strings
And showered me with kindness
But as time passed,
Your loyalty and trust
Began to disapate
As did the fog
That came in at a time
of peace and quiet,
In the middle of the night.
Came and went you did.
Time and moments we've filled.
Here's to foggy memories
That may or may not
Matter as much as I may
Once have thought.


and... i realized i did write something i liked last week. its really short. and untitled.

October 22 2008
You kiss me on my hand
You kiss me on my head
You sing me a lullaby.
Than you kiss me at my heart.

When I feel torn apart
You Tell me its ok

When I feel happy
It's because you've
Showed me the way

anyway...

today my aunt noni had a pumpkin carving party. it was my first and i did it all by myself.

karen did the two on the side and i did the "honeymoon" frankenstien and bride.

past the drop date... already?

jk. it doesn't turn me off. i've come this far. so i'm here to stay and do a full semester.
i have a paper due tomorrow as well as a test in my first class (lifespan).
i than have a test that i need to somehow do PHENOMINAL on thursday. my grade literally will depend on that.
and i need to work on extra credit for my lifespan class.

im just glad im not sick anymore and that tomorrow ISN'T early day.

writers block.

before i moved to visalia i had a pretty easy going time when it came to writting.
i moved to visalia and started adjusting and started wrtitting a bit. and it was good. i than started having a hard time writting UNTIL... the summer.

i started finally being able to write after i started talking to and old friend, i got inspired by his short story. i wrote one short story that wasn't good. than i wrote a few that were quite good. and i was happy about those. two of the short stories were dictated from some twisted dreams i've had and i meshed them together.

so since the summer i havent written anything that i was really all that happy about.
last tuesday i wrote something, a psudo-song and it needed A LOT of polishing.

today i wrote something and im happy with it.
i dont know if what i write and my style are poems, but i'd like to think they're at least along the lines of a poem.

anyway, i love sharing my writting. so here's what i wrote today:


-Heart Surgery-
Cold Cold Cold
My body lay still.
One Two Three
Eyes grow heavy.
Snip Snip Snip
Open me up
As I lay stiff.
Crack Crack Crack
There go my ribs.
You want to analyze
My heart;
See what makes it move.
You can't figure me out
But you've
Riped me open and
have torn me apart.
Stitch Stitch Stitch
Stitch me back up.
Leave me be.
Let the warm blankets
Wake me up slowly
As I contemplate
Your return.

lets talk POLITICS

so tonight i was writting my paper for english,

when my dad came home from studying. we started getting into politics somehow

(by a small comment, im sure)

anyway, he really got me thinking.

i've been all hands in the air for obama...

but now hes got me thinking otherwise.

NO... im not voting for obama BECAUSE hes black. or because hes NOT white or because hes NOT republican.

theres many reasons why i was planning to vote for him.

hes FOR roe vs. wade...

as a female... im for it. because the MAN shouldn't tell us what we want to do with our bodies.

he's FOR same sex rights...

im straight, but beleive every human being should be able to love another human being freely.

no matter who becomes president, we unfortunately won't be able to take our troops out of there safely for a few more years.

i don't beleive MORE government is the correct way to go.

and lowering taxes, means more money in our pockets. which is good because we can indulge more and therefore create more jobs in service industries.

i need to look at who WILL more possitivly affect my life today, but more importantly for the FUTURE.

medicine shouldn't be socialized. it sounds like a euphoric concept, that is, until you really disect it. i personally don't want to socialize medicine since i'll be in the health care industry. it'll be taking money out of my pocket to serve those who do NOT want help... their only concern is where to get their next fix or not caring out their health risks.

yes, health care IS expensive. i should know. i've lived 21 years without health care... i just recently got health care and i'm very greatful that i have it.

there's SO SO SO SO SO much more than that to think about.

if you wanna debate me on either which way.

please do so.

and persue me.

cuz im boggling my mind.

im not 18 and "VOTING FOR THE FIRST TIME"

im 22, and i know better.

so, lets talk politics.

she wants to be an artist when she grows up

my sister amanda.



the top one is a picture for igby... and it still makes me smile. its so he knows NOT to pee in the room.
the bottom one is a table with bananas and tea on a sunny day outside.

this one... i asked her to draw a picture of us spending time together.

her interpretation is, apparently, her on the left and myself on the right playing tennis, happily.

scholastic doodles

some doodles i've done between classes... i have long breaks.

foud this on YOUTUBE.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lzc3phhIWtc

i found this part of thursday nights fantastic show.
enjoy.

Tea & Toast

this week since tuesday i've had a soar throat. yesterday during psych i had a cough attack. it was horrible. but i was pretty ok after that.



my soar throat was doing alright when my dad and i went to brewbakers for dinner just before the show.

i was applauding and screaming and singing along, which i knew i would maybe get worse...

but i woke up sick today and got bumbed out, than realized it was worth it.

besides, both my classes on monday are cancelled, which means i can get better over the weekend.

i have hot tea that should be ready for me now. i wish i knew how to make homemade soup.

since moving...

i moved here on the 29th of march.

and aside from the life here on mission avenue... it was kind of lonesome. i missed my friends and my city. im now happy to report that im adjusting quite well. and settling with my truth.

i got to meet some people recently and they're nice people.

so far havent seen many cute guys. most of the students are boys. and peacocks. so there are a few that stand out. which is a treat.

i wish i could take pictures with my brain... but since i cant and its hard to sneak a picture of someone when its on my phone and my phone is sensitive to motion. but i've so far taken two. other than that i've been able to start enjoying it here.

visalia isn't so bad.

here are some pictures i'll share:

(sunset in kingsburg)

a view from mission avenue

Conor Oberst & the Mystic Valley Band

this week was quite lovely.

monday was just a good school day. tuesday was much better. wednesday was even sweeter and thursday was euphoric.

i finally went to the show i've been waiting to go to since the summer. conor delivered, as always. he was great. talking his gangster talk, it was funny.

and, he looked handsom, as always.

here are some pictures.

the quality is poor, since my means for a digital camera is my camera phone.

so, sorry folks... bare with me.

this show was super so good.

IT'S MY FIRST TIME!

so this is my first blog entry. and i know that only about 1-3 people in the world will read it, but lukily i really don't care :)

i've had blogs in the past but, i let myspace swallow my soul... but it stops now.

anyway... this is basically here for me to share my thoughts and feelings.
enjoy, friendly reader.